Emptiness clouds my mind
The world disappears before my eyes
My soul and body disintegrates
The worst version of me appears
Even as life darkens before my eyes,
The pain in my sight
Incomparable to the agony.
Pain,
intense and powerful
Send shivers down my spine.
Shaken, broken, my thoughts drift
Scattered pieces of shattered vessels
Ruins of a lost city.
A myriad of options
Run through my head.
Even as I seek asylum
From reality.
I grasp on to whatever sense
Or sanity left of my thoughts.
Bargaining with emotions
A fire beams inside me
igniting temper with passion
Wistful and invading.
The yearning zeal
To rise,
Seek help.
But my soul is trapped.
My mind overwhelmed.
I’m diagnosed with schizophrenia.